395 days

We're getting our home study updated and just need a few things: New walk through by the court, physicals and background checks

The physicals are done and the lady from the court will be here next week. The background checks though... they are proving to be something of a problem because this pregnancy is vastly different from my pregnancy with Kasen and I have barely left the house.

I need to call them and find out if they can just rerun our fingerprints since they should have them on file from last year or if we need to actually come down to the police station again and get re-fingerprinted.

Trust me I am very, VERY grateful and realize every day how blessed we are, but that does not make constant nausea any easier to deal with. And I know even that could be worse... I could be vomiting so much that I have to be hospitalized or on an IV drip of medicine.

My past two weeks have looked like this

nausea.
dizzy.
nausea.
dizzy.
woah - almost passed out.
nausea.
dizzy.
hey, my blood pressure says I'm dead.
nausea.
dizzy.
Zofran to the rescue! yay!
less nausea.
dizzy.
headache.
sore throat.
fever.
flu. AHHH! (thankfully - the worst of it only lasted 24 hours.)
Sweet relief of codeine. Thank you, Lord!
sleep.
dizzy.
nausea.
headache.
dizzy.
sleep.
nausea.
headache.
dizzy.
Hey let's scare the living daylights out of everyone in my house by almost passing out while just sitting there watching a movie. Could barely even drink my orange juice because my hands were shaking so bad. That was fun.
sleep.
still running a slight fever a week post-flu.
nausea.
headache.
dizzy.
sleep.

You get the idea. I have barely left the house (and the couch for that matter) for over a week. I'm getting at least 10 hours of sleep at night (usually more like 12), plus a 2-3 hour nap around 11 a.m. and am still ready for bed at 6 p.m. and am actually in bed around 7:30/8, after Kasen goes down.

I keep thinking that this can't just be pregnancy tiredness. It can't. This is insane.

But then this morning, my slow and foggy brain put two and two together and I reread the Zofran label: "May cause dizziness, headaches and drowsiness."

So... I've skipped the past three doses and guess what? I'm awake. I'm not too dizzy and I don't have a headache. But the nausea is back worse than it was before.

So which is better? Deal with constant nausea or be a bump on the log and sleep all the time while trying to take care of a toddler?

(For the record, the nausea never went completely away with the Zofran - it just helped calm it down some.)

I'm considering settling for half and half. Take a Zofran at night because I'll be sleeping anyway and take another one in the morning, because it's naptime three hours after we get up and I can sleep then, too. Then deal with the nausea in the afternoon, but actually get stuff done and do more with my child then put a video on for him.

Please let this pass soon.

telling my parents

I just realized I never posted the picture of my parents finding out we were pregnant.

We sat them down with Kasen, telling them that we wanted a more recent photo of the three of them, and then said, "1, 2, 3... Carrie's pregnant!" waited a beat and took the picture.

This is the result:



Mom's saying, "Wha...?" and Dad's expression needs no explanation.

They were shocked, then didn't believe us, then started crying. It was so awesome! I also got it all on video without them knowing ;)

And the winners are...

Yesterday was very busy, so I'm a day late doing the drawing.

Kasen helped by pulling the papers with the entries out of a bowl. Luckily, he did not eat them but instead handed them directly to me. He's a pro.

Oddly enough, I had just enough items so that everyone who entered actually gets something!

Foxy Popcorn: #1 tree necklace
April: #2 stained glass necklace
Sarah: #5 pigeon necklace
Melissa: consolation prize if you want it! - #4 patchwork quilt necklace
Shenais: #3 red bird necklace
Hill: consolation prize if you want it! - #6 sliced bread necklace
Micaela6955: #7 shades of blue necklace
Thifia: #8 spa gift basket
Wehaf: #9 men's emergency kit
Tahearn: #10 wedding emergency kit

Congrats! I'll be getting in touch with you to get your mailing addresses!

One day left to enter the giveaway!!! http://nealandcarriesadoption.blogspot.com/2010/09/355-days-my-first-giveaway.html

372 days: Big news!

The one year anniversary of us being approached about the first adoption situation has passed. It feels like ages ago that all of that happened. Actually, sometimes it feels like it didn't happen at all. Sometimes I imagine what life would have been like if the birthmom hadn't changed her mind. We'd have a 16-month-old and a just-turned-1-year-old. Life would be insane, that's for sure.

One good thing about that situation not working out was that it made us aware that we were definitely ready for more kids - sooner rather than later.

See, the thing is, even though I don't talk about religion much or go to church, I feel like I have a very close relationship with God. I believe that He knows our hearts and what we want and what's best for us.

That being said, I also know that he won't (can't) do all of the work for you. What's that saying? Something along the lines of "You can't pray to God to win the lottery without buying lottery tickets."

The only reason I have been so zen about how we are handling the private adoption process is because I'm turning it over to Him. We have done everything that we can do within our comfort zone to make it happen and I fully believe that if/when the time is right, we will cross paths with the right birthfamily.

While we are waiting and hoping for those paths to cross... we decided to start trying to get pregnant again.

Thanks to Metformin, my PCOS is under control and we had gotten good news about Neal's sperm. My OB said he thought we may even be able to get pregnant on our own so we decided to start trying.

And trying.

And trying.

After six months of that, we went back to the OB and let him know that I was ovulating but we still weren't pregnant. He suggested that for the next cycle, we try an IUI (where they inject the sperm directly into your uterus). We agreed because it is a very simple procedure and since I was ovulating we wouldn't even need any medications, which I really wanted to avoid.

And it worked on the first try.

I'm due on Kasen's 2nd birthday.

The lottery ticket analogy? That's kind of how I feel about us trying to get pregnant again and adopting at the same time. We can't pray that we'll have more kids if we don't do something to make it a possibility. We're not going to get pregnant on our own and adopting doesn't just happen over night. Personally, I don't see anything wrong with having multiple irons in the fire, so to speak. Though I know some agencies will not let you adopt if you are trying to get pregnant/are pregnant/just had a baby because they think it somehow means that you aren't in it 100% or don't want the adopted baby as much or something. I assure you - we could not feel any differently.

What does this mean for the adoption? Nothing. If someone called us right now and told us to come to the hospital, we'd be in the car in a flash - with a quick stop at the store to pick up newborn diapers.

After the negative comments we got in the newspaper about our adoption fundraiser, I also know that some will think we are evil for trying both at the same time or that we don't truly want to adopt. There's nothing I can say to change their minds, so I won't bother. I know how we feel and that's all that truly matters.

I also know this fuels the "adopt and you'll get pregnant!" myth. There have been studies done that show that the number of people who get pregnant after adoption is no different from the normal amount of pregnancies in the population. If all it took to get pregnant was to adopt, there would be thousands of more pregnancies each year. Infertility is a medical condition - it's not wished away by relaxing or adopting or taking cough syrup any more than any other disease is.

We feel incredibly blessed and beyond lucky to be pregnant again. I was very nervous about announcing it on Facebook and on here because I know that this news may cause some hurt for some people. I hate that and pray that anyone who is waiting to adopt or trying to get pregnant can find some ounce of hope in our story and not just pain for themselves. Trust me - I understand because I have been there.

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